1st Day new standards.

Had some what poor sleep. ?Decreased need due to fasting/keto? Woke up at around 411 and laid on back until 425 alarm went off. Then picked myself up and started my day with 15 minutes of fulfillment. Left to hit gym. Had great workout of pendlay rows and good mornings and decided to do 10 minutes of cardio as well while listening to hecq nightfalls. Came home listening to cool down celebration part of hour of power. Then proceeded to complete notes and even pre-filled some clinic notes for today. Today is gonna be a great day.

I need to change energy

I have had poor energy and been lazy. I feel like I can be so much better.

My rituals.
When I go to sleep I set my time later because I convince myself I don’t need to wake up and loft.
Truth I need to tell myself I donit to be a winner, not for the health.
When I wake up I convince myself why I don’t need to get up.
I lay in bed because I say I want to hang out with Sarah.

New rituals:
Set alarm for 430. Be the first one in the gym. To establish my day. Not for weight loss.
Roll over and get out immediately. Remember I donit because I am a winmer.
Remeber that a few moments with a winning, inspired husband is much better than years witha bozo. Are you a bozo? Fuck no. I’m a champion.

Include the world in your vision. One can’t inspire enough riches and progress for their own self, it needs to be bigger.

Listen to I am you twice daily and simply envision everything yoi want to be in your life and all those moments you want. Schedule it to make it real.

5/23/2019

liniting beliefs:

• Not enough time

Limiting behaviors 

• Thinking about problems new, past and haven’t even happened yet. Thinking about past failures 
• Saying: “i’ll/it’ll be fine” fuck that “i’ll/it’ll kick ass. I’m not here to be fine”

Great stuff:

• Saying: “I’m a fucking champion” and using great body tone before performing an activity

Today: skipped Gi lol. But looked up what I need for credentioing package and got it sortednout. Also got a call scheduled regarding visa. Also did all my t-beans. Went and visited with dr woodwarner. Went to Justine Tieman’s memorial service. It was beautiful but of course very sad. He had so much potential and was taken so suddenly. 

5/22/2019

Today I woke up and went to the gym, had an excellent bench session. Left lat still hurts but I did what I could with assisted chinups.

During this I emailed my recruiter and immigration attorney. They are scheduling a call.

Then I went to lunch with Sarah. It was a good place and I got an Ahi Tuna bowl. It was called crushed red.

Got my tires replaced. Picked up Sarah's side mirror. Went to Costco.

Then Redid my vision/goals board.

Rewarche this awesome video of tony robbins:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w9cupNVLP6M

And took notes this time.

Then I cleaned the house.

Sarah went to go plan my graduation party.

Then I decided to set up with this blog.

Then I saw my other old blogs. There was a blog where I struggled with a bad girlfriend who kept trying to break up with me as I faced trials that required me to perform in the top percentile in the face of certain failure with my 2 interviews, foreign school and foreign residence and unorthodox clinical experience. She had to tear my heart out during the process. Reading the blog was rather painful to be honest, as it is riddled with parts of hope and certainty, told from a perspective of pretending to not needing. It is filled with my heartache and also my success. I will never publish it or make it public. It is mine. And I am moving forward.