8/28/19

FIRE.

0800: daily reads
0830: Basics (Card done!)
0900: Basics: (Derm done, Endo halfway)
0930-10: Basics: (Endo Done!)

Long break

1045: Basics: (GI almost done)
1115: Basics: (GI done, General)
1145: Basics: (General Done!, Hemonc Started)
1215: Basics: Hemonc Done)

Long Break:

1330: Basics: ID
1400: ID done.

8/27/2019

0800: Daily read (15): good ones
0830: Board basics: Cardiology, pretty fast.
0900: Board basics: cards, Derm and Endo
0930: Board basics: Endo and GI,

Long break: payments/stuff

1030: Laundry/toilets/bathroom
1100: Board basics. GI/General
1130: Board basics: General (almost done)
1200: Board basics: Hemat

Long Break:

1315: Everyday abs/back
1345: Boards basics, ID
1425: Called mom, guitar reviews, Masterclass reviews
1455: Board basics, ID, Nephrology.

Long break:

8/22/2019

0810-0840: Daily reads, Stretching pecs.
0840-0910: Guitar practice.
0910-0940: Hosp/key reviews.
0940-1010: Board review 8 pages,
Shorter long break, 15 minutes. To clean cat puke. AB wheel, and obliques.
1030-1100: Hosp/key reviews. Cards is a pain.
1100-1130: Hosp/key reviews. Break needed at 1120 due to fatigue.

8/20/19

Planned workout routine for a while. Very good.
15 minutes.
0850: Daily reads,
0920: Hosp/key:
SB ab wheel sets
0950: Hosp/key
SB obliques.
1020: Hosp/key

Long break/laundry/vacuum/toilets/bathroom.

1130: Hosp/key, New neuro

8/21/19

0940-1010:-10 pages of Board review.
Short break. Mailed questions to Sury.
1020-1050: Hosp/key:
1050-1120: 16 pages of board review,
1125-1150: Hosp/key:

Long break. Vacuum/Swiffer/ Cleaned:

1230-1300: Board review 11 pages,
1300-1330: Hosp/key:
1330-1400: Board review ~10
1400-1430: Hosp/key

Long break, calls; repair people came in for ceiling.

1530-1600: Hosp/key: Finished, Did masterclass reviews, reviewed missed cards of the MKSAP
1600-1630: Board review
1630-1700: Board review.
1700-1730: Board review.

Long Break: Towels, Cleaned mess left by repair people, played more with cat.

1900-1930: Board review


questions: Labetalol in cocaine?
AVRT vs AVNRT????
ECG axes

Diet for recomp diary

Monday: Weight 203.7 (lift////cardio)

• Low calorie Keto/low insulin
• 12 chicken wings essentially, brocolli/pepperoni appy

Tuesday: Weight 200.6 (lift////cardio)

• Carb/protein refill/spike insulin
• 2 scoops whey, 1 scoop (37-40 grams) brown sugar shake
• Several hand fulls of pub mix
• 2 Samosas with chutney
• 3-4 portions of nonbreaded chicken strips
• 2 Samosas with channa and chutney

Wednesday: Weight 202 (abs)

• Moderate carb, high protein repair
• 3 scoops protein throughout
• 16-20 oz chicken strips
• Ketchup ad lib

Thursday: (lift////cardio)

• Low calorie keto/low insulin
• 12 chicken wings essentially, brocolli/pepperoni appy

Friday: (lift////cardio)

• Carb/Protein Refill/spike insulin
• Protein shakes with every meal

Saturday: Bodypump?

• Eat like a normal human being, not like an asshole

Sunday: 

• Eat like a normal human being, not like an asshole

8/15/19

0740: Daily reviews

0830: Hosp/key
SB-Abwheel 15
0900: Hosp/key
SB: external obliques 4 x 10 x each side
0930: Hosp/key
SB-Abwheel 16
1000: Hosp/key:

Long break:

1130: Hosp/Key all done.

8/14/19

Goal weight should be about 185.

0710: Daily reads, went over a bit.

0800: took a quick nap and extra 3 jupiters as felt somewhat run down.

0820: Hosp/key reviews
0850: Hosp/key reviews
0920: Hosp/key reviews
1000: Hosp/Key Reviews

1030: Long break: abs

Dumbbell 1.5 rep lateral raise
Barbell Cheat curls with slow eccentric and Extended wrists.
Reverse Grip Dumbbell Press
Hanging Clocks
Abwheel

1120: Hosp/key Reviews
Short break, obliques band axe chops (feel obliques near band arm crunching and twisting towards center and down into groin "follow lines", make sure hips not working.
1150: Hosp/key reviews done, new cardiology
Short break: more obliques
1230: New Cardiology.
1300-1330: New Cardiology. getting tired. Some charts are very long. 20 remain. Will take Long break, go for cardio session and re-eval after.

1540: New cardio done, started new neuro. Too many cards que'd for tomorrow. Started making Derm cards
1610: Make Derm Cards.
1640: Make Derm Cards, Derm Done. Start nephro, stopped. Done enough.

8/13/2019

0650: Daily reads
0725: Hosp/key reviews
0800: make ID cards
0830: Hosp/key reviews. Almost done

Long break: Chilling?
Caligula
uboa
black midi
gibbs madlibs

0930: hosp/key. New cardiology
1000: make ID:
1030: New cardiology
1100: Make ID (Done!!!)

Long break: Bathroom/laundry

1230: new cards
Jessie called
1320: New cards, Will finish tomorrow easily.

Will go to clinic/gym. etc. Wonderful day.

8/8/19

0715-0745: Daily Reads
15 minute recap.

0800-0830:Reviewing hosp/key
Poop alert
0835-0900: Reviewing hosp/key
0930-1000: Reviewing hosp/key and new pulm cc.
1030-1100: New pulm/CC
1100-1130: New Pulm/CC, almost done. Satisfactory.

Pomodora guitar and masterclass for rest of day (Thursday)

8/7/2019

0810-0840: Daily reads
0840-0910: Hosp/key reviews
0910-0950: New neuro making (took extension for long topic)
0950-1020: Hosp/Key reviews, Almost done pulm

1020-1025: Short break (space out)
1025-1050: Long break, swiffers, vacuum

1050-1120: Hosp/Key reviews, almost done all
1120-1150: New neuro making
1200-1230: Hosp/Key reviews, started New Pulm;
1230-1300: Neuro making Done, ID making started

Long Break/Costco/Called Jessie

1410-1440: New Pulm,
Called mom.
1500-1530: ID making,
Dad talking,

Cardio

1720-1750: New pulm

Up at 5, workout,
0720-15 minutes.
0740-0805: Daily reads, new cards made
0805-0830: Dishes, small cleanings, gmail, update tasks
0830-0900: MKSAP Reads (2), masterclass reviews and news
0900-0930: Had to get Residency degree to MSO, completed masterclass and started MKSAP hosp
0930-1000: Mksap hosp reviews (61 cards)
1000-1030: """ (43 cards)

Long break initiated.

1100-1130: Finished mksap hosp reviews. Started, hemonc card learns
1135-1200: Learn hemoncs
1200-1230: Learn hemoncs, enough (fatigue)

Attempted to call Jessie. Mailed Kapoor's Stuff, cleaned cat railing, cleaned cat water thing.

Looked cooking boards for a long time.
Called jessie.

1530-Masterclass.

8/6/19

up at 5, gym, etcs

0745-0815: daily reads
0820-0850: hosp/key reviews: good!
0855-0945: Pulm/cc new cards (went over as chapter was rather large)

0950-1020 (long break): Cleaned toilets, bathroom counters/cabinets/mirrors

1020-1050: Hosp/key reviews
1055-1125: Pulm/cc done new cards, cardiology started. stopped at headings:
1130-1200: Hosp/key reviews. (Very few left).
1200-1230: Cardiology New cards.

1230-1300: Long break, Attempted to call Jessie, Cleaned bathroom/entrance floors, Started first load of laundry
1300-1320: Vegging break

1320-1350: Hosprevs and Pulm/cc learning
1355-1420: New cardiology cards
1425-1450: Pulm/CC learning
1455-1520: New cardiology cards

Long break, call jessie and mom, switch laundry, towels,

1620-1650: Pulm/CC learning
1650-1720: New cardiology cards
1720-1750: Folded laundry

8/2/2019

up at 5, gym,
0700:15 minutes, visions etc
0730-0800: Daily reads, New twsm, empty sink

not loggin all day. will watch crossfit games while using tomato timer to do reviews. Finish hemonc, work hard on pulm cc, call peeps etc.

7/30/19

up at 445, gym, 15 minutes, etc etc.

0900-0930-MKSAP pages 4;
0930-1000-MKSAP hosp/key 47 cards
1000-1030-MKSAP hosp/key~47 cards
1035-1100-MKSAP hosp/key-~26 NEW cards

Long break: mild counters, toilets, laundry sorting and starting.

1125:-1155: Masterclass reviews, Hosp/key~28 NEW cards
1200-1225: Pulm cc cards
Attempt to Long break to call jessie. Did not answer---> short break. Changed laundry,
1240:Attempted hemonc, called by jessie. Great NEWS!!! Will resume at 1300.
1300-1330: Hosp/key. New cards. Have done sufficient new cards.
1330-1400: New Pulm cards

Fold laundry, switch loads, Vacuum.
Called mom and dad.
Pretty made more cards.

Cardio 40 minutes

Masterclasses.

Fold laundry.
read eagle and dragon.

7/10/19

Up at 5, worked out. goofed off a little.

• 0715-0745: Daily reviews with additions
• 0745-0815: new'd twsm cards

quick break, some mild cleaning, digesting reads.

0830: "15 minutes"

• 0900-0930: Rev'd Derm x2 and Rheum, rev'ing cards.
• 0930-1000: Rev'd Cards x2, rev'ing GI
• 1000-1040*: rev'd GI, neuro and hemonc
• 1040-1050: Rev'd masterclasses and guitar, New'd Deadmau5 masterclass x 1

7/9/19

• Before 8: woke up. Lifted, showered. Lollygagged. Did Daily reads reviews:
• "when trying to get your task to pull you, use the "dicken's strategy."
• Added TNG and SM cards
• 15 minutes: yogasam
• Sent Missouri license to Tiffany and got result that will be moving forward with premium processing.
• Will likely take 2-3 weeks for 401k withdrawal.

• 0900-0930: swept patio, cleaned kitchen (counters, dishes in sink), cleaned toilets, bathroom counters.
• 0930-1000: Reviewed general internal medicine, reviewing nephro
• 1000-1030: Rev'd nephro, pulm cc, rev'in ID.
• 1045-1115: Rev'd ID, Rev'in Endo

Long break 1115-1145: Vacuumed, Mopped.

• 1145-1215: rev'd Endo, revd rheum, revd hemonc, rev'd guitar stuff
• Actually reading really influences further read times
• 1230-1300: New'd Derm and Rheum
• 1300-1330: New'd Cards, started GI.
• 1330-1400: New'd GI and Neuro, Started hemonc
• 1400-1430: New'd hemonc, revised masterclasses

1430-1630: Stepped out, got gas, went to target to buy supplies

• 1630-1650. Lazed around. Got ready for cardio.
• 1715: 50 minutes of cardio;
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7/8/19

• <0800: Woke up at 5, Worked out. Withdrew 401k. Checked mail. Called Board re: license physical copy and PDF. Will email tomorrow.

• 0830-0910: 15 minutes, vision, think and grow, way of superior reviews.
• 0930-1000: reviewed neuro, almost done general
• 1000-1030: done general, done nephro, doing pulm/cc
• 1030-1100: Done pulm/cc. Done ID. 

• 1120-1150: Dishwasher, knives drawer.
• 1200-1240: Cleaning fridge
• 1250-1320: Cleaning fridge (done)
• 1320-1350: Endocrinology (done), Masterclass reviews done, guitar reviews done.

Long break: call spectrum/time warner and had landline activated finally!

• 1430-1500: Cleaned counters, sink, floors, 
• 1500-1530: Sort laundry, old navy clothes
• 1530-1600: Sort more laundry/rearrange t-shirt system
• 1600-1630: Rearrange clothes

7/3/2019

• 830-930: Gym, 15 minutes, 
• 930-1015: lounge, Vision, shower, grooming, bed

• 1015-1045: General IM, Nephro and Pulm reivewed!
• 1045-1115: ID and Endo reviewed, Derm started!
• 1115-1145: Derm done, Rheum Done, Cardiology started!
• 1145-1215: Cardiology done, GI done, Neuro done.
• Break: cleaned microwave.
• 1245-1315: Hemonc done, reviewed neuro found out need CT and CTA for thunderclap headache

Very successful day: will move to unstructured for majority of the rest of today.

7/2/2019

• 1330-1400: organize clothes
• 1400-1430: organize clothes, sort laundry, get rid of useless clothes
• 1430-1500: organize clothes/laundry, clean toilets
• 1500-1530: Masterclass anki, planning for MKSAP

Chapters/pages

• General: 16/155
• Nephro: 12/86
• pulm/cc: 13/88
• ID: 21/101
• Endo: 7/81

• Derm: 21/85
• Rheum: 15/78
• Cards:13/110
• GI: 8/77
• Neuro: 10/91
• Hemonc: 22/110

• 1530-1600: Created all decks/cards
• 1600-1630: decks and vacuum
• 1630-1700: General, Nephrology
• 1700-1730: pulmcc, ID
• 1730-1800: ID/endo 

Finished red series for today. Took 2-3 pomodoros. Very feasible.

1st Day new standards.

Had some what poor sleep. ?Decreased need due to fasting/keto? Woke up at around 411 and laid on back until 425 alarm went off. Then picked myself up and started my day with 15 minutes of fulfillment. Left to hit gym. Had great workout of pendlay rows and good mornings and decided to do 10 minutes of cardio as well while listening to hecq nightfalls. Came home listening to cool down celebration part of hour of power. Then proceeded to complete notes and even pre-filled some clinic notes for today. Today is gonna be a great day.

I need to change energy

I have had poor energy and been lazy. I feel like I can be so much better.

My rituals.
When I go to sleep I set my time later because I convince myself I don’t need to wake up and loft.
Truth I need to tell myself I donit to be a winner, not for the health.
When I wake up I convince myself why I don’t need to get up.
I lay in bed because I say I want to hang out with Sarah.

New rituals:
Set alarm for 430. Be the first one in the gym. To establish my day. Not for weight loss.
Roll over and get out immediately. Remember I donit because I am a winmer.
Remeber that a few moments with a winning, inspired husband is much better than years witha bozo. Are you a bozo? Fuck no. I’m a champion.

Include the world in your vision. One can’t inspire enough riches and progress for their own self, it needs to be bigger.

Listen to I am you twice daily and simply envision everything yoi want to be in your life and all those moments you want. Schedule it to make it real.

5/23/2019

liniting beliefs:

• Not enough time

Limiting behaviors 

• Thinking about problems new, past and haven’t even happened yet. Thinking about past failures 
• Saying: “i’ll/it’ll be fine” fuck that “i’ll/it’ll kick ass. I’m not here to be fine”

Great stuff:

• Saying: “I’m a fucking champion” and using great body tone before performing an activity

Today: skipped Gi lol. But looked up what I need for credentioing package and got it sortednout. Also got a call scheduled regarding visa. Also did all my t-beans. Went and visited with dr woodwarner. Went to Justine Tieman’s memorial service. It was beautiful but of course very sad. He had so much potential and was taken so suddenly. 

5/22/2019

Today I woke up and went to the gym, had an excellent bench session. Left lat still hurts but I did what I could with assisted chinups.

During this I emailed my recruiter and immigration attorney. They are scheduling a call.

Then I went to lunch with Sarah. It was a good place and I got an Ahi Tuna bowl. It was called crushed red.

Got my tires replaced. Picked up Sarah's side mirror. Went to Costco.

Then Redid my vision/goals board.

Rewarche this awesome video of tony robbins:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w9cupNVLP6M

And took notes this time.

Then I cleaned the house.

Sarah went to go plan my graduation party.

Then I decided to set up with this blog.

Then I saw my other old blogs. There was a blog where I struggled with a bad girlfriend who kept trying to break up with me as I faced trials that required me to perform in the top percentile in the face of certain failure with my 2 interviews, foreign school and foreign residence and unorthodox clinical experience. She had to tear my heart out during the process. Reading the blog was rather painful to be honest, as it is riddled with parts of hope and certainty, told from a perspective of pretending to not needing. It is filled with my heartache and also my success. I will never publish it or make it public. It is mine. And I am moving forward.